:: My Point Of View ::

February 4, 2011

Happy Bunny Year!!

Filed under: So Peppery Random — lv @ 11:54 pm
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it’s the 2nd day of CNY and i am waiting for my gf to pick me up for visiting.
only one house though but it’s the friends gathering that matters.

since this is a flash post so it will be incoherent and irrelevant to each other.

i was heavy-hearted to come home this time around due to some matter that i dont like to recall.
but all is well now because of the —wait-for-it: food!
ahhh!!! i am so easy to please….!! tsk!! >.<
it’s the only thing that makes this home coming all worthwhile.
i've devoured most of the 'must-eat' food and that alone made me a happy girl.

the Kebaya Night went well too.
and the sad thing was my kebaya was too tight that for the first time in my life i had difficulty to breath in a top. OMG! i swear it fit me perfectly 2 days before the event T____T

met up with peter before he went back to mur.
so far the only friend that's working out of myy that i've met.
the rest. later. i hope.

eh… my gf is here. gtg.

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3 hours later.

hey, i’m back! :p
so our gathering didnt go that well because some couldnt make it and some came late so didnt get to see the earlier batch of friends who had to go off earlier T____T
but we managed to take some rare group photos. taken by the ever trusty Mr. Self-Timer. which took us 10 minutes for every session. because each has own camera.
gonna continue tomorrow before i fly back to labuan.

so in total i received 3 packets of ang pow out of five houses that i visited. not bad :p

i miss all my friends now T____T

and i miss my cookie T____T

actually i miss my cookie very very much T_____T

i just want my cookie…… *tantrum*

aihh…. actually the purpose of this entry is to wish ALL of you a very Happy Chinese New Year 2011.

Gong Xi Fa Chai!!

may this bunny year ‘hopping’ with joy, more success, good health and endless wealth that goes along with His never-ending blessings.

be blessed, peeps!

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January 25, 2011

Blood Is Thicker Than Water

Filed under: Matter Of The Heart — lv @ 5:23 pm
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unexpected shocking revelation caught me off guard today from a brave sms. i felt my face burning with shame, fury and disbelief reading every single words. goosebumps at the back of neck remained for a little bit longer while my hands shook with rage and iced cold. i proceeded replying. i never apologise though. because it has never been my fault. i dont know what to think now. and in time like this the only thing that’s on my mind is to run. i wanna run 10 rounds today. no. make it 50. or maybe 100. until i could shake it all off my head and the knowledge of it which i (we) know is impossible as long as i (we) live. anger rushed through me. disappointment creeped in me. like fo’real? when will this feud ever end?! i just dont understand. and it broke my heart to see, to hear and worst yet to be in the middle of the whole thing that i wonder what else could it be next. i’m tired. i’m ashamed. of all of us. of all the lack of good example these people set for us. and when i am disappointed i want to just go. far away. ironically i was homesick these few days and that feeling evaporated together with those fume i released. perhaps, i eject because i expect too much and hope for perfection which we all know doesnt exist. sometimes it occurs to me that the better solution is to stay and fight, but i’m always too scared to voice my opinion on my own. chicken! i hide and cower in fear because people can talk so much and scratch u so hard, whether consciously or not. word – be very careful and afraid of it. because once a wrong ones uttered and misunderstood and cut a heart, the scar stays forever. and false tales will be repeated on and on until the day u die. the truth is, i just want my loved ones around. i want to be back in that comfortable space in this world where it is just me, and them, and our love. there, we are in a time and place where there is no need to fear each other. where it is safe to steal a chicken wing out of ones plate when they arent looking.

i just want a happy escape with those who are closest to my heart. not just real family but along the bloodlines. is that too much to ask?!

why make such a big fuss about it all of you?!!

*sob*

“If anyone says, “I love God,” yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen.” ~ I John 4:20

be blessed, peeps!!

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