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August 22, 2011

Monday Musings

i have tonnes of things to write up but today this is the best sentence to describe me. “the heart is full of desire but the willpower is weak” dang!! i know, excuses much right?!

this morning i woke up with tears in my eyes. i had a sad dream. a very very sad dream. i dreamed of someone in the family died. of cancer. and i still can recall the heartache that i felt in the dream. oh my….. how REAL it was. i mean the sharp pain my chest. it’s not about the person being dead but of how i will never see the person anymore, of how i have so much love to share with the person but couldnt anymore T_____T AND of how the people around treated me after that. oh yeah! i remember in the dream, of all the things that hurt me so much was when people complained about the taste of my chicken soup. totally incoherent with the death but that chicken soup was a legacy the person who has died left behind FOR ME. so mocking it is like mocking the person i love. yes. all this happened only the dreams. including this one, i have dreamed 2 persons in the family died. i cried in my dream too T_____T that was very long time ago though. haihhhh….. but people said if you dream about a person died, the person will have long life. i pray for their long lives. and this is my 3rd time woke up with tears due to sad dream. the second time was about a brown poodle (like i ever have one *roll eyes*). no it didnt die. but we had to leave it behind when we have to move home. it has to be left behind cos we really really couldnt bring it along (dunno move to where oso) so it sat by our gate with its sad puppy eyes and started chasing after our car when we moved T_______T just thinking about the dream make me teary….. cos it was truly truly a heartbreaking moment that i actually woken up hearing my own sob. what do u know?! *wipe tears* so those are the three times i ever cried in my dream and woken up with tears or sobbed. now my question is, have you ever have dream sooooo sad that u really cried? share your story la….

ANYWAAAAAAY…..sad dream aside, as i have mentioned in my previous post, i am currently working on my Vietnam trip photos and here is a sneak peek! 🙂

from sapa, hanoi with love!

be blessed, peeps!

August 8, 2011

Dear Cookie

Filed under: Hot & Zesty People,Monday Musings — lv @ 5:00 pm
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there were times when i totally forgotten about this special day although a week or even a month before it i was ecstatic about it and reminded self countless-ly to make the effort to call at midnight. such time was like this time. you called to say good night last night but i was too excited telling you the disturbing exorcism story happened earlier on next door (interesting story will tell other time) until… wait for it… my phone (the one that i used talking to you) vibrated furiously and when i looked at the message, OH NO!!! it’s your birthday!! and it’s midnight already!! ok, so in between scary ghost story i wished you ‘Happy Birthday’. isnt it exciting having me as your gf? *bates eye-lashes* *sayang*

i’m trying to be romantic and all with this post but i think i fail miserably in that department lah ok. so do you!! we are such a boring couple, dont you think so?! but at least the most romantic act i’ve ever did for your birthday was a surprise birthday last year which makes everyone happy 😀 and this year you were too busy to utilize your present that it went burnt, so booyah!! so i win 2-0.

i’m sorry i’ve lashed you with hard words even on your birthday. you still have time to reconsider everything kns. i’m serious. *serious look* but still i’ll pray that you’ll have a great day today, and may our good God continue to pour His blessing upon you as He guides you in His path for you in your life. you have been one of the wonderful person that God has put in my life that i would never want to trade with anyone else. though we’ve stumbled rocky path that hurts our sole (ok we dont wear footwear in this metaphor) but with His guidance love will find a way…..

these two photos from Ip4 shall remind me of how blessed i am when i am with you…..

#1 in soul searching….

#2 and especially in gastronomical bliss….

Happy Birthday!!

xoxo

August 1, 2011

Monday Musings

hello from a lazy blogger! T__T i know!!!! dont tell me about it kns. july has been very super mega ultra hectic (with travelling) for me i hardly find free and comfortable time to just sit back and blog. and the photos?!! arrrghh!!! nightmares i tell you. they’ve been piling up each month that i myself can no longer catch up with all of them. ask my friends and family. i’ve yet to post up my photos since errrm… march?! kns. and now i have yet to unpack my luggage since my return from my most recent trip. it has been a week plus now. this is so unusual because i am that kind of weird person who will unpack everything immediately right after arrival NO MATTER HOW TIRED I FEEL LIKE JUST FALL FLAT AND FAINT. because i cannot stand seeing luggage on the floor where they doesnt belong. OCD?!

on a sad note. ceh! (suka betul berduka!) I AM SUPPOSE TO BE LYING ON THE SANDY BEACHES OF PHUKET TODAY AND THEN BANGKOK 2 DAYS AFTER!!!!! but look at where i am now. stuck in the office with NOTHING MUCH TO DO. Grrrrr…. not because i’ve utilised all my annual leaves of this year. not because the boss couldnt release me. but because my travel partner couldnt make it this time. uhuk uhuk uhuk….. i know one of my resolution of this year (konon) is to travel solo. yes. i am so tempted to go by myself but so many loved ones are too worry for me to go there alone *WAILS* sigh!! i guess i am more worry to let them worry about me than i am worry about myself being there. i really dont want my phone to keep ringing during my vacation lor…. not only waste the caller’s bill, waste MY own bills too cos i’ll be paying both ways. but actually that’s not to worry even a bit because Thailand has the cheapest local sim card to call back home. i am not so sad for not be able to be in phuket. i am just VERY SAD for not being able to be in bangkok!!!!!! T______T i want shopping!!!! *hides in corner and sobs*

howkay…. i guess i’ll just have to deal with it already T___T not everything goes as planned. SUCK IT!! ME!! so on a happier note, i’ll still be going to phuket next month. YAY!! and one of my gf is going to tie the knot end of this month. very happy for her and i’ve been very kiasu i’ve booked my ticket to go back because she of all the dates has to pick a date where it would be the most peak season/ date of the month where seats will be very sought after because it will be on the 1st day of school holidays and Hari Raya.

streamyx has been installed at the house. i know what a tortoise, right?! with that all the more reason to blog diligently. please…. give me some moral support if not no post for you to read kns.

i hit the botanical garden yesterday. and i am going to start running daily from now on. because there are evil people who said i’ve gained a tonne! and had too much unnecessary tan *exaggerating* so watch me! by end of this month i will fit back in that skimpy LBD and those skinny jeans that dont show me any love recently T___T

to ease my sadness for not being able to be in thailand today i’m posting this photo below as a reminder of the land of smile 🙂

this is The White Temple of Chiang Rai.

The White Temple (Wat Rong Khun), Chiang Rai Thailand

i’ll see you next month, Thailand.

happy monday and be blessed, peeps!!

June 20, 2011

Monday Musings

Filed under: Japan,Monday Musings,My Escapades — lv @ 5:17 pm
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Ohaiyo! *try to sound like a japanese* I know it’s a while….. I’m trying my best to catch up with everything but alas my
laziness reigns supreme. I’ve returned early of the month right after gawai and then it was work work work….. I’ve to work like a cow now because literally I am officially BROKE!!!!! T_T

2 good news: 1. My best friend has safely delivered the cutest baby girl in the world. Baby Mia Ashlee. I happened to have time to visit them before I flew for my holiday last month. 2. Another cousin sister happily tied the knot.

1 bad news. I’ve gained weight!!!!! Sigh!!! I blame it on T16 T__T cheesecakes almost everyday on the rig?! I IS CRAZY!!!!

Ok, I suddenly feel like a sharp knife just piercing through my right eyes straight to my right brain. I hate this thing called migraine. Seriously!

With that here goes nothing.

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Happy Monday, peeps!!

April 18, 2011

Monday Musings

the room is hot. but i am blowing my nose *mystery* i was hit by another round of evil flu and mild fever last week hence the blockage of idea to blog. oh yes. i heard you. full of excuses. i know. i am recovering well (oh it better be) because i am going for another long trip and leaving tomorrow. wow whee!! *slides down rainbow* oh, Ha Long Bay is in the itinerary, babeh!! 😀 stay tune for the beautiful photos. next year. *i kid…. * so the state of Sarawak has just had its most talked about state election. the hype of the 10th Sarawak State Election last Sat (16/4) was never before seen. i didnt go back to vote though so i played my role just by lobbying people to vote wisely. the result, not pretty. but again nothing happened without the consent of our good Lord. He has every reason for everything that has happened and He has His reason for Baru Bian to win although the party has lost severely. one of the many FB status, my fellow sarawakian friend’s (who is abroad) caught my attention and deserved pondering ‘a leader who has a messy life or a leader who mess with you life?’ so, to each his own i think. *shrugs* i am not a fan in fact i loathed politics but in recent days as i grow older wiser i couldnt help but to chirp in my irritation towards the players. damn those media persons also managed to raised my temperature with their one-sided tone whenever they comment or anchor where they are supposed to be neutral. and with that i decided to end my rant about that topic. so i am officially a sampat who carries three phones up and down where i only have two ears. kns! one of the ‘fruit phone’ really keep me engrossed with my games, Fashion Story and Smurf’s Village. haha!! i am currently reading the girl who kicks the hornet’s nest. the final series of the millenium trilogy. ohya, i have a new assistant who is hardworking, self-initiated and clean. *tiba-tiba* plus, being pretty and good sense of fashion is always a bonus. now i can have lunch partner 😀 *irrelevant* i am still (and i dunno when will this end) playing the catch up games on all my photos. i have been to three places and all i did was sneak peek. wth! and starting tomorrow i’ll start to add to the tonnes of ‘pending for process’ photos. *sigh* why am i so lazy?! T___T talking bout laziness i have neglected my running routine for almost a month now that it’s killing me. huhuhu…. blame it on the weather for 1) being so unpredictable every time after work it will start to if not rain, it drizzle. 2) making me sick! what else?! T___T i promise i’ll hit the park again once i return from this trip. the other day i was craving for bubur kacang (what is bubur kacang in english, again?) it’s one of my favourite dessert and my mum makes the best one. but now that i am away from the comfort of everything home-cooked it strucked me that i never watch or even bother to learn how to cook it from her T___T so sms-ed her (in her midst of queuing to cast her vote during the election day… hehehe…) for help. and it was my week end project! yesterday, i successfully cooked my yummiest bubur kacang without burning the whole kitchen *proud* i will blog a separate post for this one some other time.

i like this photo. it was taken from a moving van from clark airport to manila city of the philippines. i dunno. maybe it’s the clouds. or the sun. or the beautiful country side view. or the fact that the truck was carrying a farm of pigs. or maybe the feeling i had then. it was a wonderful feeling. it was happiness.

Happy Monday, peeps!!

March 14, 2011

Monday Musings

Filed under: Monday Musings,My Escapades,Taiwan — lv @ 7:21 pm
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blog owner update. i iz sick. boo!!!!! T_______T

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i am actually uploading some photos up on fb and the uploading time takes forever so i decided to just add some random ramblings here as i wait while at the same time trying hard not to pull my hair as to think of what for dinner. hur…. hur… hur…. so what for dinner ah?!! any suggestion? i plan just to ‘ta pao’ tom yam soup and that’s it. i dunno whether that’s good for my weak and sick self at the moment but i lagi tak larat to cook for my own lor. sigh! screw normal sentence and grammar la (not that mine is any good) i am sick so i can write however i feel like now. kns. blame it on the rain.

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ok. datuk lee chong wei won all england last night which i actually didnt watch. kns. was nursing my flu and migraine with self pity and lots of sleep by then. but before that i was out with a friend, tingang for jalan2 and next thing we knew malaysia double team lose and it was already 11p.m.

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my heart goes for the recent japan tsunami victims and families T___T and then there was also warning that the effect would hit sabah and labuan so everyone is advised to stay away from the coast. i received sms and phone calls from some concern people who apparently keep me in their thought *touched* and thank God that we are fine.

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i am going to the site tomorrow. it has been almost a year since i last wear my blue coveralls :p job would an easy task so i think i can handle it despite the boss advice me to go see the doctor earlier. i just hope that the heat wont melt me. that’s all. if i lose to the heat i’ll be doomed for another round of this pathetic sick condition. arrghhh!!! note to self, must take meds and have full rest tonight.

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oh no this uploading really gonna take longer than i thought!! hmmm….. what else should i rant about?! my head is throbbing with pain and my body aches and my nose is trying its best to run away from me. aihhh….. i know i should stop now and start go ‘ta pao’ that freaking tom yam which is again not the best food to consume at this condition but the uploading is half way through now i just dont wanna discard it now i spent lots of time on them ok.

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sigh! i’m sorry u have to endure all my nonsense up there. so here’s a sneak peek for what’s in store next. i hope.

dream mall roof top amusement park, kaohsiung, taiwan.

be blessed, peeps!!

March 7, 2011

Monday Musings

Filed under: Monday Musings — lv @ 5:05 pm
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and here comes monday. the day most people dread of the week. if only human could change colours like a chameleon i believe many have turn into the colour blue. like the people in Avatar. kns. and i am one of the blue people. today.

*cue for still got the blues song*

*emo*

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i went back home over the weekend. i burned a massive hole to my pocket T___T i just hope i wont end up eating grass by the end of the month. and talking about end of the month, i cannot wait for the day to come!!! i want my giraffes!!!

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i wanted to clip my hair up one day because i didnt have a hairband so i asked The Boyfriend to find one around the house. he went searching around and returned with none and with a i-seriously-want-to-help look he asked “can you clip with those clothes pegs?” HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAA!!! i replied in between laughter and teary eyes “hair clips are for hair. clothes pegs are for clothes!! ok?!” HAHAHAHAHAAA!! he turned away with a face like a tomato. then that evening my monthly red visited without warning so i wasnt prepared so i had to asked him to help me to buy sanitary pads. he returned with 2 packs of pantyliners instead!!! i refrained myself from laughing but HAHAHAHAHHAAAA!!!! he has to return and get the correct ones. my oh my……. guys with girl things!!

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football update (suddenly) Liverpool redeemed their dignity over the defeat to West Ham last week by beating Man Utd. 3-1. yohooOOO!!!!

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btw, my hair is ash brown now. and i’m going to the saloon after this for a good hair wash because i am lazy. why does laziness always win??!!! T____T

Happy Monday, peeps!

February 21, 2011

Monday Musings

Filed under: Hot & Zesty People,Monday Musings — lv @ 11:01 pm
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10.19p.m. and i am still at the office. rushing for datelines. oh my. it has been so long since i last do this kind of work and frankly i kinda enjoy it sometimes. and i thank God for FRIEND!! a good friend is here who is kind enough to accompany me. actually it’s more than i begged and dragged him to. he’s watching the tv and he’ll kill me if he see me updating this blog instead of working so i better be fast :p

a memory of a long time friend slip into my mind last night. a friendship now that shamefully more just as acquaintance these days. time and geography changed us. slowly robbed away our heart towards each other. or maybe it’s just me. but there’s more to it. there are too many layers of surfaces before i could reach that once a very comforting feelings of being together. whenever i try to peel each of it i cant seem to reach the bottom of it. not even the center of it. i reminisce our days back then. one fine night always come to mind in clear vivid scene.

it’s your hand…. knowing my pain, my scarred young heart that wasnt used to such turmoil, you hold my hands. we walked hand in hand in the twilight without looking at each other but in firm grips. silence. we pretended to ignore the horrid situation until you said “hey, it’s ok to cry u know. if you want to. you’ll feel better if you just cry it out.” and my tears dropped rapidly even before you finish the sentence. maybe you heard my silent sobs although i’ve tried hard not to release any sound. without looking at each other you knew…. and that my dear friend i miss the most about you….. a real friend who doesnt need to be told that she / he is needed when hard times struck. a friend who pretended not to care on the outside as you want to but care enough on the inside to just hold your hands and understand. dear friend, i know you dont read my blog but i wish you and family well. now and forever be blessed.

so thank God for friends….

be blessed, peeps!

January 24, 2011

Monday Musings

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because it is monday and i can feel that my next coming posts will gonna be full of photos.

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i am supposed to be at the botanical garden now for my daily jog but sadly it’s raining!!!!!!! *cries* i want my daily jog….. huhuhu….. TT_____TT *tantrum*

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had another fun roadtrip to kk over the weekends with good companies. met up and camped together with cousin fiona and her colleague. all we did were eat. sightseeing. eat. eat. and eat some more. that’s why i am so frustrated now that i cant go for my jog *emo max* and for the record, i did not buy anything during this trip!! i surprised myself!!! wow!!

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and i admit that kebaya is just not for me T___T it hates me!! huhuhu….. really. not the other way round. i think, maybe i’ll pair it with jeans or a three quarter pants instead of the sarong to make it looks more ME. tak boleh jadi betul!! but we’ll see…..

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american idol. aahh!! other than j.lo being such a babe (i adore her makeups and styles) i am totally smitten with the odd-but-magnetic-sexay steven tyler!!! *glee*

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i revisited some of my old posts the other day. (ya i read my own blog i dont have life you have problem with that?!) one of my protected emo and jiwang entry caught me. i wrote “overlooking the view outside i was staring at nothingness…. is missing someone really this hurtful? oh how i almost forgotten how it feels….” wow!! i must be really jiwang with a capital J at that point :p and fyi, i wrote that on a flight. fragments of familiar tingling of absence unfurls before me these days. i miss some people i almost cannot contain it i just wanna break down and hide in corner and act dont care but actually care T____T and really?! why is it so hard?!

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as much as i craved for cold stone ice cream which is impossible to get in malaysia i am satisfied to just to substitued it with McD’s cornetto’s sundae with chocolate flavour. because the person who treated that matters 🙂

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and i have a very severe chappy lips now that it hurts so much when i smile sometimes it bleeds. T_____T HELP!!

Happy Monday & be blessed, peeps!!

January 17, 2011

Monday Musings

Filed under: Australia,Monday Musings — lv @ 5:35 pm
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i am still suffering from the hang over of the sudden and overnight dramatic hike of my readers statistic since my Melbourne in Black & White post has been promoted or featured on Freshly Pressed by WordPress.com last weekend. my blackberry alert went off non-stop after that notifying me all the incoming comments. i’m stoked by all the warm and encouraging comments. really. they were just way too good for me as i am actually not even a pro! i am trying my best to reply each and every one of them *determined*. please if you are a returning reader, i appreciate ALL of them. gosh!! i feel like a rock star that i almost wear my ripped jeans and my black leather jacket to work today. yeah. that’s how the impact does to me. awesome!!

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instead of jonah i finally shared a topic on submission to the authorities yesterday with the youth group. i left my notes or the verses that should be in the topic at home (myy) and those whom i’ve sms for s.o.s didnt reply my plea. thank God! i used to blog about it some times ago HERE so there. and for the first time i’m glad i’ve ever blogged about it. berguna juga di saat2 genting.

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i am still overwhelmed by the overwhelming comments. my heart goes lalalala at every words everytime i read new incoming comments. ya. i cannot stop myself from yapping about it all the time. u wanna sue me?!

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JJ from hitz.fm dropped me a comment on my 2010, in my heart post today. Oh! it made my day!!!

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glee!! they make my world go round and round. i. cannot. wait!!!

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and here is a sneak peek for my next entry. a majority favourite!

The Puffing Billy!! the legendary steam train.

happy monday and be blessed, peeps!!

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