:: My Point Of View ::

November 30, 2010

I Come To Know…..

Filed under: Matter Of The Heart,So Peppery Random — lv @ 4:31 pm
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i come to know that the feeling of realising things dont always go as we planned or wanted it to be is getting too familiar that it numbs the core of my heart of heart. sometimes failures lured us to be stronger and persistent while at the first bit of frustration we feel like the whole world is against us. people tend to talk about success all the time. success is sweet. victorious. i know. i’ve felt it. i’ve tasted it. and i stumbled. many times. have you? before you succeed have you ever failed? i dont know about you but i sometimes prefer to fail. or to lose. dang! this i discovered years ago in such tender ager of 8. where i purposely spelled wrongly in my spelling test just so that i wont get 100% all the time. gosh! am the only weirdo around?! see at least i have a story to tell. i’d like to quote JK Rowling’s powerful statement about failing ‘it is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all – in which case you fail by default‘ and i am not a cautious person.

i come to know that ‘i’m not ready’ is not the best answer to God. i realised some revelations and dreams about me is starting to show bit by bit (i think. i prefer to ignore the word perasan). and it makes me nervous. and scared. like fo’real?! *suddenly i feel a lump in my throath now sorry* God, what do you want from me?! T_____T and i am soooooo tempted to say the above statement….. but again “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the LORD. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:8-9 aiya….. how want to lawan that?!

i come to know there are things that we want that we just cannot have or we just have to refrain from having / getting. i’ve learned this when growing up. when The Dad just could’nt afford to buy me an original Barbie Doll and when i cried so hard for a piano but just could’nt have one. and am grateful that i now know i could have all but i choose to be just being content for whatever i have. because i’ve learned the hard way. so as this new camaraderie i’ve found. it’s comforting and i am content for just being a part of it. as i try hard to soak up each fleeting moment in it i know at the end of the road i’ll see them turn into pebbles that leads to unspoken happiness. which in times to come makes me smile.

i come to know loyalty and patience come a long way…… and very romantic.

i come to know i actually like awkward moments….

be blessed, peeps!!

Happy Tuesday!!

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4 Comments »

  1. Good one. *on to the joking side* But to purposely spelled wrongly so that you wont get 100% all the time? Come on!!
    I for one want success in everything I do. Yes i know that sounds a bit turn off but I thank God that I have an awesome Father who knows my heart and what’s best for me. I’ve come to learned that success is not about earthly things but completing His will. Its easier said then done. I feel that I fail ALL THE TIME in anything I do. That feeling sucks to the core. And i dont even know where i am going here. lol. *bunyi cengerik*

    Comment by Makeupgeeek — November 30, 2010 @ 5:07 pm | Reply

    • that’s y la i said ‘weirdo’. haha…. mcm best jak the number 90 to 98 on the spelling test paper. cos 9 & 8 is my fav numbers… tei… maybe i am not a competetive person :p malas kena chop ‘kiasu’ (apa kaitan?)

      and hey, getting success is everyone’s goal (including me) so tat’s not a turn off but once in a while when we stumble / fail it gives greater satisfaction and meaning to it, no?! what more to say in fulfilling His will?! sacrifices babe…. i wish you success!! xoxo

      Comment by lv — December 1, 2010 @ 10:31 am | Reply

  2. ciri2 penuaan tue…

    i owez received less than the other so dun blame me for growing up like this
    hohohoho

    kecik2 suda terpinggir n pilih kasih

    imagine this: adik balik dari pasar dgn bapak dpt jam baru…and i dun ..terBANTUT pembesaran otak dan kognitif tau

    Comment by haro — December 1, 2010 @ 12:09 pm | Reply

    • haro,

      keluar topik betul kamu nih…. haha!!

      Comment by lv — December 2, 2010 @ 8:25 am | Reply


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