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November 8, 2010

Monday Musings

Filed under: Matter Of The Heart,Monday Musings — lv @ 3:47 pm
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i’m finally back to labuan. after two eventful weeks in miri. both work and personal alike.

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i’m exhausted!

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and i know i’m depressed when i lose weight T______________T

it’s something i’ve come to realised and yet comprehend. mood swing and hyper-sensitive to the slightest changes in my environment and words spoken. all i want is to stand at the edge of a cliff and scream bloody murder and pour out everything that’s been bottled up inside which i am still not capable to identify. or maybe i knew all along but still in strong denial in fear more tears being shed! regrets haunt me on imperfect works i’ve done, disappointments creep in on things that are not up to my expectation and sadness fell on me thinking that i could do better. uncertainties and reservations once again flooding in. this ugly ugly feeling, i really despise you!!

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i miss my two fav ladies so much today. The Cousin and The Bestie. i couldnt be more happier that they’ve finally found their men and happily married *wipes tears* but then again i miss them heaps you wont understand……

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i miss running too. and i believe the botanical garden misses me too. i can feel now that my purpose of running has drifted to something else. from the beginning i was running towards my goal. to maintain and fit in those size 24 jeans and that skinny black tube dress. and now that i’ve got it!! i’ve lose those unwanted kgs and i’m happy. but now i feel like i am running from something. something only God knows and i couldnt disclose. something that has been tagging me for so long that i am again in such a mess to keep on denying its existence. Oh Lord, please help me with this!! T______T

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distraction! i need distraction!! to keep me sane. to restore my senses.

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i know this is an emo post on a Monday. but it’s a normal phase, no?

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In the multitude of my anxieties within me,Your comforts delight my soul.
Psalm 94:19

Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28

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and this too shall pass……

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in time like this, i want to remember and treasure happy moments. retail therapy!!

fitting room actions!! and look at my pretty bling-ed cameraphone! nice or not?! :p

Happy Monday, peeps!!

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7 Comments »

  1. kurus suda trus tunjuk gambar?
    loss weight but become depressing?

    i think u just missed ur cuzzin, kenot ajak lepak slalu cos she got someone to jaga oredi…

    makan dark coklat if u wanna b hepi..

    Comment by haro — November 10, 2010 @ 12:07 pm | Reply

  2. chocolate and then become fat again?! no tq! bluekk!!

    Comment by lv — November 10, 2010 @ 12:15 pm | Reply

  3. Eeeee…how is someone depressed because lose weight?! If me, i do makan doa selamat if i lose weight! How did u lose weight? mesti because of work kan? thats what i heard, you lose weight when u work. And u look really good in all outfits. Sigh. What am i going to do with my lemaks2 nih. Christmas is approaching soon, need to shed away my fats (pastu gain balik lemak after new year lol) 😛

    Comment by Makeupgeeek — November 13, 2010 @ 1:50 pm | Reply

    • ya lah.. work and too many other side personal works/tasks that i thought i can handle all at once. the price of multitasking! sometimes it eats u up inside and out. and i think i take things wayyyyyy too serious already T___T dont be like me u…… depress tak tentu pasal. take things one at a time and enjoy ok 🙂

      thanks for the compliment there *blush* things i do when i try on clothes sometimes :p i can’t wait for christmas too… eeee…. *hati melonjak2 gembira*

      Comment by lv — November 13, 2010 @ 2:31 pm | Reply

    • MUG,

      ohya, i lose weight cos i jog almost everyday after work here 🙂 but the stress/depression contributed to it too la… which is good in a funny way :p

      Comment by lv — November 13, 2010 @ 2:37 pm | Reply

      • Woah..if i can lose so much like u and need to jog EVERYDAY, okeh saya start hari ini juga! But i usually jog 3 times a week la because of my hair also. I cannot wash my hair everyday, meaning i only was my hair 3 time a week. More than that, dries like hell. How many km u jog everyday?

        Comment by Makeupgeeek — November 13, 2010 @ 3:02 pm

  4. i dunno how many km i run everyday :p but i MUST run 20 minutes NON-STOP. tak kira la that 2 laps or more of the park. but when i am high in adrenaline or stamina, i can run more than that. i used to run 5 laps of miri bulatan park NON-STOP. i think i consumed too much sugar that day :p hehe….

    Comment by lv — November 13, 2010 @ 3:31 pm | Reply


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